Biting Nails

I am getting a little nervous about the apartment situation. It is approaching rapidly and I still don't have a second job, or a loan, or a credit card. I know it is technically the last day of the holidays, because tomorrow is the day when everyone returns to work, so there is no way of getting any answers until then. It is just nerve wrecking, waiting and not knowing anything yet. Not having any idea when I'll get more money, if I will get another job, if I am going to have a roommate, if I can afford to live alone if I don't get a roommate, if I will be approved for a credit card, if I will be able to afford to eat. Everything seems to be coming down today. Nothing is different, but the stress is starting to overwhelm me now that the move in date is getting so close. It is in almost a week, a week tomorrow. I'm scared. I'm nervous. My stomach hurts and I don't know if I can do this. If I can't I will have to pack all my things and move back to Colorado. Move in with my parents until I get on my feet. I will feel so dumb. I keep trying to tell myself that I just need to stay positive and everything will work out how it is supposed to. I'm just nervous. Really nervous.