Someday

    Well folks, I am trying to get on my way to a happier, healthier me. I have my first Brazilian wax appointment on Monday at 1 pm with an amazing friend. My next day off is this Thursday, so I'm thinking of taking some of my birthday money and getting a massage. The place I'm going to get waxed has a really awesome coupon where you get $100 worth of free stuff, 25 goes towards a first wax, 20 towards a first massage, 25 towards a facial, and the last 25 towards a mani/pedi. I'm interested in all of those! Not all at once though. But I am definitely in need of some pampering. I think after all is said and done I will be feeling like myself in no time!
    I'm becoming increasingly more interested in the HCG diet. You're supposed to lose 1-2 lbs a day, safely. Basically how it works, is HCG (which is a hormone you produce while you're pregnant, totally natural and safe. You take it orally, a few drops a day under the tongue.) moves the fat around in your system so that you burn it. Because of this, there is minimal hunger while on a 500 calorie diet. Because in essence, when all that fat is being burned up, your body is running on thousands of calories, so you don't need as many. The typical diets are 30 days long, and you're supposed to lose around 30 lbs, give or take a few, depending on how well you follow the guidelines. The HCG itself is rather expensive. But on the plus side, you'll be buying less food for that month, so it evens out somewhat. So I will do this, and to maximize my results I want to do some light yoga, that way I get back into it also.
    In other news, classes are going pretty darn well. No psych homework yet, which is surprising. I always freak myself out thinking I'm missing something when really, there's nothing to be missed yet! There is a larger project coming up in a few classes though, I think that is why. I'm getting quite the load from English though. But that's okay. At least I feel like I'm getting my money's worth :)
    Today was a major milestone for me. I have officially not spoken to or even tried to contact Lindsey for over 24 hours! I don't think that has happened in the last year in a half even once. She texted me earlier but I ignored it. I'm realizing I'm always the one texting, facebooking, inviting out.... If she wants to genuinely be my friend, and a REAL friend, she can do some contacting for a while. Plus, then I won't feel so needy and clingy. I always get this negative feeling when I call her, because in my mind I'm doing what I'd do with my best friend, but I think in her mind it is me being an ex who is still in love with her. So I'm going to let that cool for a while. Level out the balances of control once again. God, it's been over a year since they were even.
    When we first met, I had her wrapped around my little finger. She was head over heels, and I was just along for the ride. Somewhere along the lines though that scenario switched, and I felt like the needy one starving for attention, while she was out living life free as a bird. Well guess what baby, I'm taking back my life, my control, my freedom. Freedom to not sit at home and think of her, or cry over what happened, or let that heart break turn me into a bitter cold person. Things are going to get better than they are someday.