What else??

I got a glimpse of her phone today. She has a ton of texts to and from this girl Rebecca, her exgirlfriend. I am quite angry for a couple of reasons. First, I feel extremely lied to and betrayed. The entire relationship she swore up and down that she wanted absolutely nothing to do with Rebecca. That she was once in love with Rebecca (I don't see how. They were together for a month and didn't even have sex. Rebecca was pregnant and Lindsey always said she cared more about the kid than Rebecca..... The non-born-yet kid. Okay?) but that if she ever talked to her again it would be to see how the kid was doing. She told me after we broke up, about 3 days later, that she had added Rebecca back to facebook, that she had wanted to for a while, but was afraid of me getting mad. YEAH I definitely would have gotten mad because she lied to me, every time it was brought up it was just a big fucking lie. What else did she lie about?

Also I'm mad because the whole time she swore up and down that Rebecca was a terrible friend. That their relationship didn't even have that going for it. Rebecca was a flake. Rebecca sucked. And now they're like best friends. I made a comment about it the other day because she mentioned her again, and I said, "So what.. You guys are best friends now?" She replied with "Not best friends".... Not BEST friends??! This is the girl she told me she wanted nothing to do with. But really she had been lying to me for ever about it. Because she knew it was what I wanted to hear.

I am more hurt than anything. Betrayed.

PS She also told me a few days ago that she is not in love with me. Pretty much that being with me is the last thing she would want. When people ask if we are back together because we're able to hang out, she replies with an irritated and firm "No!" It's like a "God no why the fuck would you ever think that would be possible, EVER" No. So I guess her saying it would be a possibility some day, if things work out that way, was a lie too.